"Yellow River" by Christie

This song came on my MP3 player earlier today.  The lyric "I'm so glad I'm still alive" struck me.

I think back on the bazillion times, before I transitioned, I wished I were dead.  I wished I had never been born.  I wished I had never existed.  When I went to bed I hoped and prayed I wouldn't wake up the next morning.  The hundreds of times I thought about suicide.

Now I AM SO HAPPY that I'm still alive!  Live is so wonderful and amazing since I became Rachel!!  It makes me cry to think about all the happinessw and joy I would have missed out on!  All of the incredible and amazing people I would have never met and never been able to enjoy their friendship.  Reminds me of the movie "It's a Wonderful Life" (one of my favorite movies!).

If anyone reading this is struggling, please get help.  If any Trans* people are reading this, I plead you to please get help!  I'm absolute proof that you can have an amazing and wonderful life as a transgender person.

Trans Lifeline: http://www.translifeline.org/

#TransIsBeautiful

Actually any LGBTQ people...

The Trevor Project: http://www.thetrevorproject.org/

Or anybody for that matter, please, Please, PLEASE get help!

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention:  https://www.afsp.org/
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

I believe there are two different tempos here.  Maybe the single was sped up?

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gsTCRmnlgPI
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1T-7qB_GJ5g
YouTube (45 RPM): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BMDnLs0MWIw 
YouTube (lyrics): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsQzJrODzFs
YouTube (lyrics): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7nwBVPqKLA
YouTube (live 2008): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyiehaqVcJE