Friday, March 31, 2017

"Tears in Heaven" by Eric Clapton

I attended the "The Bystander Dilemma: The Holocaust, War Crimes, And Sexual Assaults" symposium today at the S. J. Quinney School of Law at the University of Utah and it was outstanding.


Here is the video of the entire 6 hour program, it starts with the discussion about the Holocaust and Bystanders:

YouTube (U Law): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0sfrQ2o4Cc

There were several parts that really struck me.  The Reverend Doctor John C. Lentz, Jr.'s talk, spoke to me about how I believe religion and Christianity should be.  I am not that religious, but if I were, this man is someone whose guidance I could believe in...  Actually, I absolutely believe what he said in his talk is true.

He asks the question (28:26): "Why did Christians just stand by and do nothing to save the Jews?".

And he made an excellent point (33:05): "Christians failed (to protect the Jews), but so did Atheists".

I really liked the end of his talk (35:24), so I tried to transcribe the text at the bottom of this post.

In fact, I think his talk is so wonderful I think everybody should just watch and listen to the entire thing.  This is where it starts:

YouTube (Reverend): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0sfrQ2o4Cc&t=25m

Then the War Crimes panel picks up on topics raised in then first session:

YouTube (War Crimes): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0sfrQ2o4Cc&t=1h41m58s

The segment of the program on Sexual Assault was dear to me.  Far too many people are sexually assaulted every day.  And as I'm sure most people are aware, it's not just women and girls.  Gay men, transgender people, straight men and boys are assaulted regularly.

I'm sad to say that several of my transgender friends have been sexually assaulted.  The entire thing is SAD!!!  No human being or beings should be attacking another human being in such a deeply personal way!

YouTube (Sexual Assault): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0sfrQ2o4Cc&t=4h41m5s

I had shed some tears during various parts of the program.  Even more so this section on Sexual Assault.  All of the stories where horrific, the attacks so personal!

But Ms. Brenda Tracy's story (5:17:59) about what happened to her, really opened the floodgates.  I'm so glad that Catherine was sitting next to me so we could hold each other.

It blows my mind that so many people could conspire to throw a young woman (who had been brutally assaulted by 4 young men) under the bus, just so they could assure their football stadium was updated.

YouTube (Ms. Tracy): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0sfrQ2o4Cc&t=5h17m8s

After the symposium was finished I stayed and talked to Ms. Tracy for a few minutes.  What an absolutely amazing woman!  I told her a bit about my story as a transgender woman and she pointed out some similarities in our experiences.

Thanks to her for that insight, that connection hadn't occurred to me at the time.  But in reading the articles, perusing her website, watching her video and thinking more about it, I see several similarities and connections.  That is probably why I related so strongly to her story.

I notice that Title IX came up in her story and it is, of course, very much in my mind in the past few months.  My blog posts on Feb. 24th and Feb. 28th for example.  #StandWithGavin

And there was one unexpected connection, she mentioned in her About section "My two sons are my  heart and my life.  When I wanted to die, I thought of them.".  I know that thinking of my children, is what always pulled me back from the precipice.

You can read more about Ms. Tracy on her website and I definitely recommend watching the video on her website:

Brenda Tracy: http://www.brendatracy.com/

Please, everyone reading this: sign her and her son's petition to ban violent athletes:

Brenda Tracy (petition): http://www.brendatracy.com/petition
#BanViolentAthletes

And here are some other articles about her I found:

ESPN: http://www.espn.com/college-football/story/_/id/18440993/sexual-assault-survivor-brenda-tracy-addresses-american-football-coaches-association-convention

Fox Sports: http://www.foxsports.com/college-football/story/brenda-tracy-sexual-assault-rape-baylor-activist-032317

Huffington Post: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/oregon-state-university-sexual-assault_us_56f426c3e4b02c402f66c3b9

Oregon Live: http://www.oregonlive.com/ducks/index.ssf/2017/02/brenda_tracy_to_meet_with_oreg.html

USA Today: https://www.usatoday.com/story/sports/ncaaf/bigten/2016/06/22/rape-survivor-brenda-tracy-meets-nebraska-coach-mike-riley-oregon-state/86270018/

And finally, in the same vein, I happened across this Samantha Bee "Job Fair for Future Women" story about sexual harassment at work.  Places like the Grand Canyon, cruise ships, even female comedians and scientists.  Really!!  She even finished up with a theme song for "The Rape Boat"...

YouTube (Full Frontal): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDfpGdk3HgQ



This seems a bit anti-climatic after all of that, but it is a wonderful song I've been intending to post for a long time.

YouTube (official): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JxPj3GAYYZ0
YouTube (lyrics): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b6t4Zs5Yq_k
YouTube (live 2013): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmLQes4tmtM
YouTube (unplugged): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSbqm7ZK_9s 



This is the text for Reverend Doctor John C. Lentz, Jr.'s talk that really reached out to me.

Note: I transcribed this with voice-to-text and it wasn't perfect by any means.  I've done my best to clean it up and make it reflect what the Reverend intended.  I have put the phrases that I feel are important in bold. Please excuse any errors I may have introduced.

While it isn't easy reading, Deuteronomy and Leviticus, it's absolutely foundational to everything that is written; that you care for the other.  That you help someone in need.  That you remember that you were a stranger and so treat everyone with compassion.  That you even help someone who's donkey is stuck in a pit, even on the Sabbath.  The prophets Amos, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Micah declare in no uncertain terms that God is on the side of the oppressed and that god demands that the faithful act on behalf of the other.  So perhaps, theologically, we should quit blaming God and more blame ourselves.  In short in the biblical literature, the call is clear: no by standing.

And I really think too much of religion today is about individual purity and identifying who's in and outside of the in-group, at the expense of community concern.  And I think this is a horrible misreading of the sacred text.  In the same... it is same in the New Testament: "lay down your life for a friend", "blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness", "love your enemies".  The ancient religious texts give us the moral vocabulary, so we need to know it and use it, not dismiss it.

Religion at its core stresses a covenant-al rather than a transactional language and approach to our Civic life together.  Clearly in this partisan age we are losing the notion that we are part of a larger whole, this E pluribus unum. 

Individuals within the covenant community understand that we are in this together, as part of something larger, therefore we must alleviate the suffering. We must stand up and speak out against oppression and violent... of violence.  And what is often overlooked, I believe, is this: the message of the sacred scripture, at least for me, is transcend... transcendental, transcendent, not tribal.   The covenant is really not for the closed-in group, who share a religious belief, but is rather has this wonderful transcendent vision extended to all people.  

Laws can encourage this for sure, but I think a secular society alone cannot work.  So Christians and Jews need to reclaim and proclaim the revealed truth, again and again and again Because it is easily forgotten, as we see, and the powers-that-be are strong.

And let me close with something contemporary I fear that we are in a similar state today.  Because: do we stand with the Jews, today, in response to the attack on Jewish community centers and the desecration of cemeteries?  Do we rise up and speak out against hateful words that are directed towards our Muslim neighbors and immigrants and refugees? 

Do we challenge white privilege and institutional racism within the church and the academy, let alone in police departments and in businesses?  Do we stand by and watch women get raped or homeless men taunted?  Or as I read in the newspaper: not to build homeless centers in my backyard?  

When community breaks down and we become tribal rather than transcendent, we lose ourselves and no law is going to protect us for long.  And so I want to claim that religious text, whether you're a believer or not, doesn't really matter.  Religious texts give us a language of protest, of behavior, of community, of standing with the least.  And the notion of covenant from Genesis 1 to Revelation 21 stresses compassion, care, sacrifice, neighbor love.  Always extending the boundaries of concern and I think it is a source of hope for me.

So from standing within a religion, I get very frustrated and critical and embarrassed about my institution and many who claim the title, including myself.  We failed during Nazi Germany and often times we fail today.  But I will be damned if I'm going to let it happen again!  And the deeper question is: where are you standing?

Thank you.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

"This Is Not America" by Anna Maria Jopek and Pat Metheny

Virg's Fish and Chips was on State Street in Salt Lake City, back on 29-Mar-2007 
Update 25-Dec-2018: discovered I had two blog posts for 12-Mar-2017, but had no post for this date so I moved this post to this date (30-Mar-2017).

I also found this photo from back on 29-Mar-2017, a mere 10 years before, but how things have changed!  I had NO IDEA a decade later I would be happily living as a woman.  It boggles my mind!!

Original post moved from 12-Mar-2017:

Found this version of this song today, absolutely I love it!!  I posted the original version last year on 15-Jan-2016

And I have to say that since January 20th, I don't think this is America...

YouTube (live): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMnmprj9jSY

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

"You Wear it Well" by Rod Stewart

This is the hardest blog post I've ever had to write.  I'm actually writing it several days later because I haven't been able to face it.  Every time I've sat down to write it, I was so overcome with sadness I couldn't do it.  I cried so much on that day...

We need to put a stop to bullying of all people, young or old, straight or gay, cis or trans, normal or challenged!  As I noted in my post last 29-Aug-2016 here is the link to The Bully Project with a video and some resources:



TheBullyProject: https://vimeo.com/73792284



Update 18-Feb-2018: I found an old photo with Gaylen in it and posted it in my post for today.


I was on Facebook this morning and, I can't remember what led me to look at the "In Memory Of Those That Passed On From Bonneville Alumni" group, but it was heartbreaking to see one of my two best friends staring back at me.


http://www.standard.net/Obituaries/2017/03/05/Gaylen-Howard-Bodily

Gaylen, Randy Underwood and I comprised a trio that hung out through our high school years and many years afterwards.  I spent more time hanging out and doing everything with Gaylen and Randy than anybody else.

I have so many stories about our times together...  I could go on and on and on!

I so remember his green AMC Gremlin!  He so loved that car!  So many stories and adventures.  A few years ago, in my blog post for 3-Feb-2013, I mentioned one trip that sticks in my mind.

Another time, very late one night, we took the Gremlin 4-wheelin'.  It was up in some dirt hills, also in North Ogden.  Unfortunately, there was a huge rock that was partially sticking out of the ground and we hit it with the cross member and it bent the hell out of it.  Since we were climbing a hill the car had been in 1st gear and after hitting the rock it was impossible to shift.  So we had to drive home in 1st gear, all the way from North Ogden to South Ogden.



Gaylen used his dad's 1951 Dodge pickup truck for many things.  One of the fun things was when the Stage Crew created a float for the football game when Bonneville made it to the State Finals: 

Stage Crew Float

Because the football part of the float was made using a 2x4 extended from the bed over the tailgate, it stuck out the back of the truck.  So Gaylen had to drive it blind and in reverse around the track in the parade, with somebody giving him directions, if I remember correctly.  It seem like about halfway around it he hit the curb and the sudden bump caused the 2x4 to crack and the football broke off.



One of my best memories was lying on Gaylen's bed and listening to a Rod Stewart album playing on his Dual turtable and watching it on his Color Organ (now commonly referred to as a Light Organ).  A wonderful memory!

So I thought I pick a Rod Stewart song for today.  This song seems appropriate as I've tried to find Gaylen several times in recent years.  I so wish I had tried harder!  In retrospect there are several other avenues I could have pursued.  I've grown so used to doing things on the Internet that it never occurred to me until now that I could have used human connections...

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsqKdZ3JZ2k
YouTube (45 RPM): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGhGHzM451w
YouTube (live 2004): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kr7Ibybc-Ew

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

"The Bluest Blues" by Alvin Lee (feat. George Harrison)

I attended the Women's Panel at the Utah Pride Center earlier this evening.  It was inspiring!  I really enjoyed hearing their stories and the things they have done.

Marina Gomberg, Carol Gnade, Luci Malin, Sandra Hollins, Linda Hilton, Kim Pederson, ?
Update: Carol Gnade was kind enough to send me some of the names I didn't know.

Anyway I especially enjoyed Kim Pederson's story about growing up in a town in Montana where every single person in the town was important.  And when one person in the town was having difficulty, everybody in the town chipped in to help and make up the difference.  There was none of this "every man for himself" bullshit! 

She was/is a lesbian and talked about when the police raided the "gay bars" in the 60's how they would beat them up and sometimes even raped the lesbians.



Anyway, I heard this song while we were cleaning up the Ladies Literary Clubhouse after the  Utah Women Unite's Show Us Your Green Gala on St. Patricks Day.

Note: Alvin Lee was of course the lead vocalist and lead guitarist of the band Ten Years After that did the song "I'd Love to Change the World", which I posted last year on 17-July-2016.

And as I noted last year, I like the song but disagree with the lyrics.  First, I love dykes and fairies.  I know many, they are wonderful.  Hell, I can identify as a dyke, here are my shirts from the b+ dyke trans poly rallies and marches from the last two years:


And I firmly believe that those greedy rich bastards should be taxed MORE!!  #FeedThePoor!!  I'm still PISSED off about the Meals on Wheels thing!! Argh!!!  I don't really give a shit if there are no rich NO MORE!!

YouTube (Official): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rB6OlJqV1rQ
YouTube (Topic): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXYmiZh0GIg
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lz3px4dTU8
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-cETCFdrD0
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDzyama_wCI



This is a funny bit from Stephen Colbert about the #TrumpCareFail - I love this line directed at Trump's blaming it on Democrats: "... not enough votes to get a majority, well that didn't stop you from becoming president!".

And then about the Judge Jeanine thing: "Yeah, just helping out a friend. 'You shove Ryan's head in the toilet and I'll stand by the bathroom door and yell for everyone come watch!'".

YouTube (Late Show): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YixLWioVMCw

Monday, March 27, 2017

"Roam" by The B52's

Genevra posted in the Utah Women Unite page on Facebook a request to have people post a picture of just themselves in the post.  I saw the photo Kate Miller added with the description: "Tombstone, AZ, sippin' a sasparillia after a ride on that dusty trail":




The line "Oh girl, dancing down those dirty and dusty trails" popped into my head.

YouTube (Official): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNwC0sp-uA4
YouTube (Topic): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FuJDNYT3n0w
YouTube (live TV 1990): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axqHnm0KfkY
YouTube (live 2013): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ce7KJSVkFwY 
YouTube (lyrics): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVBMBhufaC0



I saw this clip from Meet the Press today and this is another good example that everything is about tax cuts for the rich.  Trump is really a reverse Robin Hood, taking from the poor to give to the rich.

Having been on Misty K. Snow's campaign it is SO PAINFUL seeing Mike Lee.  As usual I disagree completely with Mike Lee.

YouTube (NBC News): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwzAiLVqUFw


Sunday, March 26, 2017

"The Sound of Crying" by Prefab Sprout

I saw this story this morning on why Paul Ryan and other republicans hate the poor:


Salon: http://www.salon.com/2017/03/23/why-are-republicans-so-cruel-to-the-poor-paul-ryans-profound-hypocrisy-stands-for-a-deeper-problem/

I can believe that!  This belief in God and using it to justify all sorts of bullshit is so annoying!  I remember back when the AIDS epidemic came out and the cries that it was God punishing gay people.  Utter nonsense!

I was telling SueZQ about the article and she told me about her recent thoughts about morality.  She says that when you do something to help others and improve humanity, that is a moral act.  When you do things that harm other human beings to satisfy your own desires, that is an immoral act.



I heard "Appetite" by Prefab Sprout on 103.1 The Wave a little while ago and remembered what a great song that is. Unfortunately, once again, I already posted it 5 years ago on 6-Mar-2012.

But then I remembered this great song, which is much more timely.  It's probably even more relevant now that when Paddy wrote it over 30 years ago.

YouTube (Vevo): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zr4xlgZqQkg
YouTube (photos): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LV5ZeMciqkk
YouTube (lyrics): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3HWRHk6r4Ko

Saturday, March 25, 2017

"Regret" by New Order

I certainly had lost it yesterday and I even struggled to keep from going down the rabbit hole this morning.  I thought about posting the "White Rabbit" song by Jefferson Airplane, but I see I posted it last year on 24-Feb-2016.

Then, because I was rode my bike over to Costco yesterday collecting aluminum cans on theway to and from, I thought about posting "Poor Side of Town" by Johnny Rivers, but I found I had posted it on 3-Nov-2015.

And then I thought about posting "Ruined in a Day" by New Order, but once again I'd posted it, in my old blog, clear back on 4-Oct-2013.

Three strikes I decided to post a different New Order song that I really love, from my favorite New Order album: "Republic".

One interesting thing is that there are 32-bit remastered tracks of this album.  I've long felt that the 16-bits used for CDs and a lot of digital music was really insufficient.  I have a 24-bit sound card and I feel like it has much better quality.

YouTube (official): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71ZHVmSuBJM
YouTube (32-bit): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErZ4o-a_9Cw

Here are all the 32-bit 96 KHz tracks from the "Republic" album.

YouTube (32-bit album): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErZ4o-a_9Cw&list=PLAXtxlmxaeodPehAgTJXX_Bu2MOlGIBrZ

Note: it pops up the annoying "This video contains content from WMG, who has blocked it in your country on copyright grounds. | Sorry about that." message.  So I have not been able to play any of the other tracks in this YouTube list.



And finally a Bill Maher video about the "Hitler Care" failure yesterday:

YouTube (RealTime): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZvaTrClzio

And the worst 100 days ever:

YouTube (CNN): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1WeHaz5bnw